Just Thinking About Some Stuff

The Thinking Man sculpture at Musée Rodin in Paris

The Thinking Man sculpture at Musée Rodin in Paris (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I’m sorry  I haven’t written lately. Some things happened that I still haven’t figured out how I feel about yet, and until then, I best not expound on them publicly.

That being said, I did want to thank all the people who sent me comments/emails making sure I am okay. I am, and I appreciate you guys taking the minute to check on me. It was very sweet, and touched my heart. I hope to get back into my writing routine soon.

Right now, I just need to process recent events.

Thanks for understanding.

– Bird

The Red Carpet of My Mind

It occurs to me that making friends on the internet is kind of an odd exercise when it comes to me. I spend a lot of time watching people…how they speak, what they say, body language, tone inflection, etc. Last night, I spent a good amount of time talking with Sara, and we talked for hours about subjects I’ve almost never discussed with anyone in my entire life, except maybe with Audra.

When I first set up my blog, it never occurred to me to not put my picture on my gravatar or in the About Me section…But some of my new friends on the internet chose to keep their physical appearance a secret. In fact, most of my Blogosphere friends who opted for anonymity have been assigned a “look” in my head based on some pretty goofy criteria.

For instance, Sara looks like Katherine Heigl to me in my head from 27 Dresses. I guess it is because of her alters, though I never really have analyzed why she looks like that specific character except that she gives not many hints about her physical attributes…

What Sara looks like to me in my head…

 

And then there is Terry, who has only ever told me that she is a tiny bit overweight, which is nothing much to go on because I know anorexic looking women who say the same thing. So, in my mind, Terry looks like one of my favorite actresses of all time — Kathy Bates, but specifically how she looked when she was playing Delores Claiborne..I loved that movie! And Kathy plays a wonderful, fierce caregiver in that movie for her friend Vera, who wasn’t always all that appreciative, and frankly I think she looks beautiful.

Terry looks like this in my mind…

 

The phenomenon works on anyone I tend to communicate with or about that causes any big emotion in me. For instance, any one who reads Sara’s site knows that her therapist recently violated her trust to a spectacular degree, is kind of arrogant and dismissive of her reactions to said violations of trust , has breached his code of ethics, if you ask me, and has been a general stumbling block to Sara’s fight to heal from her childhood sexual abuse. So, in my mind, this is what doctors who cause more damage than healing look like:

George Burns…or T..you decide..

Last night, I actually had a better monkey picture, but after I looked closely at it this morning, I decided I wasn’t as brave as I was last night..lol. Sara even dared me, but I can’t use it, so I lose this dare. But I think this picture pretty much says how I feel about people who misuse their power. :)

I wonder, does anyone else do this image assigning in their heads? Or is it just me that is so weird!!

– Bird

 

The Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award

 

Look what Sara passed on to me!!! Thank you, Sara!! Like me, Sara is a rebel when it comes to following rules, so in her honor, I’m only going to pass this one on to a couple of people, instead of a whole 15-20. Seriously, let’s keep this fun. Last time I won an award and followed that rule, it took me something like 3 hours just to do all the linking, and by that time I’d forgotten what I had wanted to post that day. You wouldn’t want to miss those nuggets of brilliance, now would you? :)

What can I say about Sara that I haven’t already said about a million times? I write whole posts on or for her, so there isn’t much left to publicly say. other than I am so glad that we’re both on the same path of healing these days and we are both emphatically against men wearing nipple shirts. I like seeing the light in her posts these days, and even though she’s a brand new sister, she has an uncanny way of hearing from the Lord exactly the same thing He seems to be telling me…I’ll never buy that there is no proof of a Living God!!

So, mmm…what do you not know about me yet? Can there possibly be anything at all left untold?

Ok. Here’s one for you: I was unable to buy a pack of cigarettes last week because I wasn’t carrying an ID and the counter-girl seriously believed I was under age. Sweet! Of course, they ID under 40 anyways, but I’m choosing to believe this was a really cool compliment. :)

I have a ton of sisters in this blog world, but since I’ve jacked a couple of her posts and hacked off her favorite atheist, I was  going to nominate Anne at My Life Uncut…Almost, but Sara already nominated her for the Magical Blogger Award, so I’ll just mention that I love this woman’s blog and she’s pretty patient, kind, gentle…no problem telling who she’s serving by the fruit on her trees.

So, I will nominate the following women, who I’ve grown to really love as sisters as well: I’d vote for Ed at pinkagendist.wordpress.com but obviously this is for girls only, so next time, Ed!!

1. Rendezvous With Renee - I love that Renee writes me these little “cheerleading” comments that cut through all the emotional crap and just tell me I’m just simply awesome..no matter what. Sometimes, a girl just has to hear that, whether it is true or not..Thanks, Renee! Renee writes a lot about real world emotions, and I enjoy her articles daily!!

2. For His Glory and Praise - I call this lady Forhisgloryandpraise because she still has the WordPress standard message on her About page, and for some reason, I laugh and laugh about that…I just know she stays mysterious on purpose!! I’ll bet she pulls off the mysterious and dangerous look without looking constipated at all!!  Still, she always shows up every time I write and uplifts and encourages me. Plus, we both could just die with pride in our grown children! A nickname would be nice, ForHisGlory… :-) Anyways, check out her site, too, okay? She’s a really sweet person!

3. Home’s Cool! - I love Katharine here, who is a fellow Oklahoman. Katharine and I, while we both love the Lord, are not always  interpreting scripture the same way. So what? I wrote an article way back when  about just because two people don’t agree, doesn’t mean one person is right and the other person is automatically wrong. There can be things that are right for one person, and plain wrong for another..God puts us where He wants us, doing what He wants us to do. If I tried to live your life, it wouldn’t work…it isn’t where I am supposed to be. And trust me, not too many people are going to be all that happy living mine.. :) Don’t be afraid to float your stuff out there, Katharine. People can disagree with you..it doesn’t mean you are completely wrong and everyone else is right. Be bold, sister!!

So, once again, thanks to Sara at Kyllingsara for remembering me. Love ya, Girl!!

– Bird

A Time For Everything – Writing Assignment

Look at Earth from the Heaven

Look at Earth from the Heaven (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

So, I have been thinking lately that I would take some of these cool blog-writing games that people are doing and set something up for myself to do also. I can use it as a way to direct what I’m going to write. Some days I have a ton to say, but others, there isn’t much going on. I have chosen this excerpt from Ecclesiastes…I thought for the next 28 days I would write a small story about these:

A Time for Everything

3 For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:

a time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to seek, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
a time to tear, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
a time to love, and a time to hate;
a time for war, and a time for peace.

I don’t know how well it will all turn out, but I thought it might be fun to try it! I will begin either this afternoon or tomorrow with a time to be born, depending on how my day goes..You guys have a good day!

– Bird

A Game of Tag

Tag Games

Tag Games (Photo credit: Hegemony77 doll clothes)

I got tagged by Karyl @ ilovethishusbandandwifestuff  Thanks for tagging me and for the question!

‘Tag – you’re it!’ – The rules:

  1. You must post these rules.
  2. Answer the question the “tagger” listed for you in their post,
  3. And create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
  4. Choose 11 people to tag and link to them in the post.
  5. Let each blogger know that you have tagged them.

So, I’ve posted the rules. and now I need to answer the question the person who tagged me asked me, which was: “”What was your most joyful moment?”

I’ve actually had quite a few most joyful moments, so it is hard to pick the crowning one. I would have to say that it was the moment God Himself through a prophetic team I’d never even heard of, told me and the entire congregation of the church I attended that it was His Will that I keep the baby I was pregnant with…Rebekkah. I guess I really felt humbled that my problem was important enough to Him that He would tell me publically, with witnesses and with all the church leadership in attendance, and silence the judgments around me. I imagine my feelings at that moment might have resembled those of the woman who had been caught in adultery, and yet Jesus didn’t let anyone around her judge her, and then He chose not to judge her Himself. I can’t wait to physically tell Jesus Thank You for that. :-)

Now my nominees and the questions for them:

  1. My Life Uncut…Almost - What do you miss about living in Texas?
  2. Rendezvous With Renee - What is the one thing that you like the most about yourself?
  3. Hobbling Around - If you could have a comic book character designed after you, would you want to be the hero, or the bad guy?
  4. Backwards 222 - Who is your favorite human being on this earth right at this moment?
  5. Adurna Blue - If you could marry a man with the perfect last name, what would that name be?
  6. Terry 1954 - What was the time that you laughed the hardest in your whole life?
  7. Kathyplashley - If you could change just one thing about the American public school system, what would it be?
  8. Originalapplejunkie - Which parable that Jesus told means the most to you, and why?
  9. Forhisgloryandpraise - When you get to heaven, besides Jesus, who would you like to sit down and have a conversation with?
  10. Whatidesiredtosay - What is the absolute best customer service call you’ve ever received?
  11. Creative Noodling - Describe how a marriage between you and Kyle @ Mew Tube would begin and end..lol!
 I hope you all play, because I picked specific questions for each of you, and I’m just dying to know the answers!!
- Bird