Bird Finally Actually Throws Down…

I am having a bad day. Every thing that can go wrong is starting to do just that; my husband is in a full-blown battle with Father Time today, and I just keep trying to dodge the bullets. And even though I really tried not to, I snapped at him in a spectacularly dramatic moment that would have been beautifulif it had been in a movie, but

Sara

it only escalated the tension here at home. I usually know what I should do; I don’t always actually do it…I’m still in the middle of learning this lesson, and like chemistry, I get a little lost in all of it. My sleep medication hasn’t given me 4 complete hours of sleep in something like four days, and I’m physically, mentally, and spiritually worn out. My faith isn’t wavering…just my stamina and patience.

So, as he is inclined to do, these are the settings for the devil to lodge grenades at me in the form of snarky comments aimed at my friends Sara and Anne that were wildly inappropriate and hurtful. Now, in my tired and weakened state of mind, I didn’t notice that this is the Number One way satan tricks me into stumbling..by provoking me through someone else’s hurt or injustice. Anne’s comment that I flipped out on was a diatribe of why we Christians …blah, blah, blah by an proclaimed atheist, posted on a beautiful story about Anne’s dead mother. I lost my cookies…I could not believe the arrogance! Anne calmed me back down, and frankly, handled her own business with grace and dignity. But not before I threw down on the unsuspecting opinion-owner. I’m very impressed with your compassion and patience, Anne. I decided after that incident that I should take a break from writing/reading and cool down emotionally for a while.

And then stuff in my really-real world started spinning out of control this morning. I was just going to skip writing today, knowing I’m tired and grumpy. But, on a whim and in need of something to distract me from myself, I thought I’d read a couple of my favorite blogs, and maybe cheer up a bit. Enter, Sara’s commentators with their arrogant, and obviously ignorant, advice. Sara is a girl who is suffering from extreme effects of childhood abuse, and I can’t even make myself write the horrible opinions some people..who aren’t her followers, felt the need to slap on her. I seriously, seriously considered  going to their blogs and letting all hell break loose. I may not be able to kick a person’s butt physically, but I’m pretty good at a snark-war. I did warn you guys that I have to keep a strict hand on my temper, remember? Well, the best way to unleash the beast that is my temper is to pick on people I care about. It never really works when satan attacks me directly like that. And I get sucked in almost every time. This time, though, while I did respond, I was pretty tame considering what I wanted to say. It wasn’t a perfect victory, but it wasn’t a totally loss either. I’m putting this battle in the Tie column.

Finally, I open up my own blog, and I have this, I’m going to assume, well-intentioned comment under I Know Exactly Who My Enemy Really Is :

“I would be remiss if I didn’t comment to this. I wasn’t healed until I embraced Satan as one of God’s children and came to Love him as well. One of the Lord’s fallen angels – much like we are. He doesn’t bother us much any more (Satan, that is) because he has become one of ‘our brothers’. Took that to end the war in me.”

Now, does this remind anyone else out in Christian-ville of Jesus being offered a bribe in the desert? Because when I read it, I had to chuckle a little bit…my enemy had overplayed his hand, and the storms in my head and heart settled right down…Peace has ensued ever since. I think I can maybe feel God smiling..

I think this all happened by God’s own design today. No one ever gets snarky on our blogs, and yet there were attacks on blogs that I would specifically be offended on behalf of these particular writers..coincidence or divine intervention?…You tell me. And, in spending so much time in fury for the defense of another, I was able to focus on something that wasn’t going on around me. Tempers in my really-real life calmed down, and a peace treaty of sorts has been negotiated. We just ate dinner together, and the peace is holding.

I wasn’t going to write today, but Sara thought I should, and I think she is right. I feel better after having written it all out. You guys have a nice evening.

— Bird

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105 thoughts on “Bird Finally Actually Throws Down…”

  1. My dear friend, Bird. I knew you could do it! I am so happy for you. And proud – when I get home I’ll even throw on my thong just to prove it. 🙂 The world is again our Tiger Shrimp.

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    1. lol..I am wearing my thong right at this moment to celebrate both our victories today…plus, the husband thinks he is being rewarded too..but we both know the real truth.. 🙂 Tiger Shrimp World.

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      1. I wasn’t going to say anything about my husband, but I thought the same thing. Even though husband is in the dog house, I think the thong would send mixed messages. Unless I wear something big and baggy over it. 🙂

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            1. Satan hates me. He never gives me a minute’s peace. I think he hates your blog, too. This happens in some form to me every single time I do something that might help someone else. Without fail, every single time.

              But today, I feel like God turned all his crap into something good. 🙂

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    1. Thank you, Terry. I am almost afraid to read anyone else’s today…lol. I will check your post out right now. You are always there with an encouraging word. I appreciate that about you.

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  2. Ha ha ha! Sorry for laughing. Actually I’m not laughing, but I am smiling. Not because of insensitivity to what you’re going through…been there and it ain’t funny!! But because I love you, and am glad to see your post here! 🙂 I’ve been wondering where you’ve been today. As for the post on my page, you were waaaaaaay more upset about it than I was. But I still appreciate you.

    I haven’t read the posts in question on Sara’s page, but have read her comments in regard to them, and from them I can assume they were not very kind. Funny (not really funny haha…but you know what I mean)…sometimes it’s actually Christians who cause more damage to the Kingdom than anyone else in the end. And that’s sad.

    Tomorrow’s another day, my dear new friend! And actually this very moment is a new moment. Grab it and laugh, and know you’re really, really missed when you stay too quiet! 🙂 Blessings, Anne

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      1. That isn’t your fault. I think they had some supernatural direction, if you know what I mean.. 🙂 Besides, so what? We all came out winners today despite their snarky comments.

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    1. Thanks, Anne. I really appreciate your missing me..That is really kind of cool. And there is a break in the storm over here, plus Sara was right about getting it all out, and being done with it. I feel much better all the way around.. I get kind of weird and sensitive about my mom, and I over-reacted thinking that if I were to find something like comment attached to a post about my mom, how angry that would make me…And the stone just gained momentum from there..Oh well. I didn’t say anything that isn’t true, and I didn’t call him names. The names part was the big accomplishment for me… 🙂

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      1. LOL…I replied to ‘a difference for your loved ones’ in that post of mine. I feel so badly for missing it before. I saw it…but I don’t know if I was just tired or got distracted or what, because it didn’t register.

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  3. This reminds me of the song “You Never Walk Alone”. Bird, just remember you are never alone. We, your friends, along with God are here for you anytime you feel the need to vent.

    Walk daily with God at your side!

    Ed

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  4. Would you please do the followings:
    A. look at your wrists, Do you see any holes?
    B. Look at your feet, Do you see any holes?
    C. Ck your forehead, Are you wearing a crown of thorn?
    Please remember the blessing you got this morning when you were granted the gift of life. God saw something worthy in you and gave you one more day, for tomorrow is not promised. There are times when we go through a storm, Just remember: God is in control, and Jesus has taken the worst. Above all he will never leave you nor forsake you, His words not mine. God bless you, Smile and give Him praise. Please read the following and compare your day, it always works for me when I go through any storm :Acts Chapter 16:16-25
    God Bless

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  5. So let me get this straight: we should love Satan because God loves him? Is said anonymous commenter reading your blog from a psych ward? Head up butt much?!

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    1. Ok, Amy. That comment made me laugh my butt off!! I can’t tell if he is being serious or not..I think he is. He didn’t respond to my answer so I just don’t know. Maybe this is some new philosophy going around now?? I kept thinking that I had to be reading it wrong!

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  6. Bird – you know – I feel ya on the total lack of sleep. it does AWFUL things to a girl’s soul!!! Sometimes the most spiritual thing we can do is take a nap. Which I would do if I could actually go to sleep! 🙂 Sending you HUGE hugs and praying for your sanity, your rest, your marriage, and thankful that you have righteous anger. That’s not a bad thing. 🙂 Thanks for writing today and sharing your feelings. I love reading your posts!! You are an encouragement even on a BAD day!! How do you do that????? 🙂

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    1. This was a really sweet pick-me-up! First, thanks for the sleeping commiseration..I don’t think people realize just how important sleep is and just how close to a lunatic you resemble when you don’t get any. Second, thanks for the prayers and the compliment on my writing even on bad days…lol. But thanks for the righteous anger…It made me feel a little less ashamed of myself. I’m hugging you right back! 🙂

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  7. I understand. I carry the Colon Cancer gene. Mom died from it. Her mitochondria gives it only to her daughters. She had five daughters. I get bloody diarrhea. And, am grouchy and insomniac sometimes. Sleep medications do not work, for me. I just have to eliminate foods like caffeine, in the mid-afternoon and onwards. I do hope you feel better soon. Try to be good to each other, by understanding each other. De-stress by chilling out on the couch. That will help you to wind down. Sending up a prayer, right now.

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    1. Thank you very much for your prayers. I’ve been dealing with this sleep thing since I was a teenager..I kind of know how to ride it out, but when I get really stressed, I get “afraid” to sleep. I am doing better this evening though, and I will see my doctor in the morning. I appreciate you taking a minute to write me!

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    1. Me, too, now. I just figured it would come out all angry and snarky, but just the act of writing it all down kind of dissipated the anger. Thanks for the comment!

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  8. When I am stressed by a perceived threat, in my life, I cannot sleep. I was choked when I was married, b/c I asked my husband to “turn over you’re snoring.” He really messed up my nerves. I have to forget it, in order to forgive it.. Mother Teresa said. It’s not easy. I guess surrendering to God, what I cannot do myself, and telling Him, helps. I hope you can sleep tonight.

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    1. Thank you so much for this. I’m sorry about that messed up choking incident..how horrible! But you sound like you have healed up and moved on.I appreciate your kindness..and Mother Teresa was on to something there… Have a blessed night!

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  9. When my 2nd baby was born, I was nursing her and my husband was renovating our house 6 days a week for a year and a half while I was handling the kids alone and I averaged 2-4 hours of sleep per night for a year and a half. And the sleep I did get was in 30 minute increments. I was a MESS! I eventually felt completely insane and like I was having a nervous breakdown – which I am sure I was! I should have just gone to the van at night and let my husband deal with it, but I didn’t have enough functioning brain cells to come up with that plan! And I was driving and falling asleep all the time and filling rxs as a pharmacist and so afraid I would kill someone! Lately I have been only getting 4 hours of sleep per night again. UGH! Humans are not designed to function like this! We just aren’t. So I completely get the insomnia issue and that you are NOT your best self even if you really want to be!! SLEEP WELL TONIGHT, GIRLFRIEND!

    PS – driving while sleep deprived by only an hour or two per night actually increases the risks of accidents in a rate that is similar to drunk driving. And lack of sleep increases our risk of heart attacks, weight gain, ulcers, and a whole host of nasties. Sometimes being a pharmacist means I know TOO much, huh? 🙂 Praying for rest for both of us tonight

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    1. I am no scientist, but I do know when my body is threatening to strike, and it is getting close to that point. I can usually do fine with the little sleep I get unless there is something really upsetting me. Then all the ambien and lunestra in the world can’t put me to sleep. On a pharmaceutical note, that Ambien turns me into a weirdo sometimes at night. One time, I actually started a whole other blog about cyber graveyards and all it had in it was picture of an owl making a goofy face…I would never have know about it except, I was checking out web histories on my computer and ran across it. I’m stupid when I’m suppose to be asleep!!

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            1. mmm..then you are the Sergeant At Arms…go intimidate them… See..I can do this gang crap. I’m going to get to work on our secret gang hand sign…

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  10. So glad to hear that you’re only human and not a bloomin’ saint! I know I’m sure not.. I have to work at it consistently, and I fail lots. God bless you, doll. You give me hope that we will get there someday (hugs).

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    1. Hugging you right back!! I don’t see any kind of sainthood in my future…I fail constantly. Now, failing….THAT I have mastered! Maybe I can be St. Bird, Patron Saint of Failing Miserably, Embarrassingly, But Consistently, and Generally With A Good Attitude… 🙂

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  11. Thanks for sharing Bird. Authenticity is critical! I love reading “A Slice of Infinity” by Ravi Zacharias Ministries. Well writtena, inspirational, and informative to understand the origins all those off-kilter ideologies. Breathe! He really is in control when we aren’t, and we never really are, we only think we are. Thanks again for the real shake!

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        1. lol..I’m sorry! I know very little about Christian leaders any more. I’m embarrassed I’ve never heard of him, but I will check him out. I appreciate the link, too. 🙂 I, at one time years ago, studied almost anything I could get my hands on concerning other religions. I did it partly because I’m curious about people and why they do what they do, but also because I was proving to myself that Jesus could stand the comparisons. I did prove that to myself, and it was surprising easy.. Thank you again!

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          1. If you get lazy regarding reading another article – Just look him up on You Tube. He often can be found debating with elite professors at prestigious Ivy League colleges, etc. If you can follow his logic, he is really educational to anyone wanting to better understand the value of the Christian Faith.

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            1. I appreciate the suggestion, but I think I’d like to read his work..I tend to understand things better after reading about them vs. just hearing them..I have no idea why. It seems almost everyone I know understand things better the opposite way. He’s lecturing elite professors and I’m just finding out about him?? I really need to keep up with things!!

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              1. Slice of Infinity is e-mailed every day. You can get on the mailing list be visiting the address posted. I love it so much, I have a feed for my guests on my blog, along with TS Poetry, and The American Poetry Society.

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  12. I hate to hear you had a bad day. I was not going to write today either but my wife encouraged me to write part two of the coming apostasy. It will be up tomorrow morning, God willing of course. Then I got home after supper and just needed to vent so I took some time and posted another blog today. So I actually posted two blogs today. Amazing how life goes. I hope things get better for you…

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    1. I know. It has been a strange day. lol..Two posts after you’re Out-of-Office article…Well, I find it kind of helpful in calming my life down. Hopefully, it was helpful for you too. I’ll go check them out tomorrow. Tired tonight. 🙂

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      1. After tomorrow morning’s post for the coming apostasy part two. I will be gone for the rest of the week for sure. I will be logging in to check updates and such but no more post after tomorrow morning, until Saturday. Apparently God did not want me to take the day off today. That is fine because it is His will that I want to do not mine. So you might have three depending on if I post my new blog up before you get up. What time zone are you in?

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  13. The one thing that will send me into a fit of rage faster than anything, and that is when someone I care about, or someone who is unable to fend for themselves is attacked in any manner. It is part of who I am. I just wish others had my back in the same way on some days… Because I have weak moment too, but that’s usually when I get kicked the hardest.

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    1. That’s horrible! Well, if I catch anyone doing it over at your site, I throw down for ya!! And taking care of each should be a natural reaction… Maybe people forget you are sometimes a vulnerable girl instead of just assuming you some badass biker chick!

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  14. Bird, Satan must know his time is drawing real close to an end, because I had a terrible night and day too. But Greater is He who is in us, than he who is in the world, and we are up for Satan’s attacks because we are clothed in the Armor of God, and are both willing to stomp on Satan’s sorry head whenever we get the chance. The Lord knows you were righteously angry over a friend being attacked, and his forgiveness and mercy is there for us at those times. My confession is I had moments of anger today too, but not at the Lord, and I did not blame him for what I went through, but I was anger not righteously…but out of illness and tenderheartedness. Thank God that in moments like this, I can go to him for forgiveness, and he will get my heart back on the right path with him. Yep, in those times, I have to humble myself and admit my sin, even to my poor husband who was the one who had to deal with how I was feeling and especially my grumpiness.

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    1. I’m telling you, forhisglory, there is just something in the drinking water today! I am sorry you are being shot at too…Ah, but that is proof that you are a threat! Tonight, I literally stumbled upon Job 38…It made every single problem I was struggling with seem so fixable all of a sudden.
      I stumble all the time. God says be quiet and He will do His work, and I say okay, Lord..but then I seem to just immediately try to manipulate things again. I’m always horrified, smack in the middle of actually doing it! I have been a Christian for the majority of my life now, and I’m still an idiot!! But, you just pick yourself up, and climb on the proverbial horse again, or in times like these, the proverbial mechanical bull! 8 seconds is about how long it feels I can maintain these days! We’re being refined with fire…we must have some value or He wouldn’t bother.. 🙂

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      1. You last line says it all…”we must have some value or He wouldn’t bother.” The fact that Satan is attacking us daily, or even moment by moment should tell us how much value we have to God’s Kingdom, and should instill us God’s “Blessed Assurance” because Satan wouldn’t bother us at all if we were not God’s children. You hit the nail on the head with that one remark. Usually in my own devotion time I have been rereading the New Testament in order, but it seems that often as I’m on the way to do that a random verse somewhere else will catch my eyes and heart. I often think this is God’s way of talking to me about what I’m going through at that moment. Lately though God has been bombarding me with verses addressing what I’m going through, and these random verses will come from friends on facebook, or even these different blogs. It’s like everyone sensing a part of my life at the same time. I truly believe it is because we are all going through the same attacks from Satan, with increasing ferocity because he knows his time is getting closer and closer. Remember Bird, we all fall because we are humans…but it is in getting up and letting Christ get us back on track that makes us overcomers through Him. Knowing this will give us a bit of a rest before the next attack, because we will grow stronger knowing we have defeated Satan again through Jesus.

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        1. I appreciate your encouragement and reminders of how God can use just anything and everyone around us to minister.
          Last night, my friend Sara became a Christian. Kind of explains why satan has been so active these last few days…It was completely worth it!! And Jesus won anyways!!

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          1. Praise God for that! I was just praying for her salvation last night in my devotion time! You see Bird, our imperfectness is always used by God for his glory, and he sure used you on this one! I am so thankful that Sara gave Jesus her life, and that you have become a mentor for Jesus to Sara! Yippee!!!! You just gave me a wonderful start to a new day! Guess you and I are going to have to make extra room on that first day in Heaven to let Sara and Anne to our little coffee meeting…lol. Today the angels are singing praises because one more soul has been written in the Book of Life! You know, Jesus will always win, because from the beginning he knows who will be his, and in his time that person will be His. We just have to have the confidence to know it! I’m so happy for Sara, and for you who became the vessel God used to open the most special door for Sara’s life!

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            1. The whole thing was kind of unexpected on my end…I love Sara, and was just happy to be her friend. The way satan has been lobbing grenades at her left and right, I was just praying she wouldn’t be devastated…You have to go read her posts…You can see God’s fingerprints..and His humor…all over her life yesterday. Thank God. I really, really love that girl!

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              1. I plan to check it out. I’m so happy for her, and yes, I could Satan tearing away at her terribly. But we know that God can defeat Satan’s slings and arrows. I also had noticed the little signs that showed that Jesus was winning the little battles for Sara that would lead to the ultimate victory for her.

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                  1. Yes, you can. She lays her soul bare before God and anyone who reads her blog, much like you do…the signs of an honest person…without holding back. I think that is what draws me to what both of you write. I’m heading out for a short walk with Jklyn, but I plan on checking out her blog post when I get back.

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          1. Well…I at least got ready for bed, haven’t quite made it there yet. LOL Glad you’re feeling better. I deleted a comment I had put on that thread of mine…rethought it, and Sara said that comment had been a non issue for her. I just figured it might be best to leave it alone and not stir anything up anymore than it already had been.

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            1. I was just looking for it. Now that I’m calmer and more in control of my temper, I was going to see what it was that was directed at her. All I have heard is that it was from a fellow Christian, but nothing else. But, it is probably good that you did that. Sara’s getting enough crap today..no need to bother with this too. Glad you were still up!!

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              1. My daughter Jen is petsitting out in Gulf Breeze, and her cat, Marley, is rather agitated tonight for some reason. Maybe he misses her. He’s meowing like crazy right now too. I think he wants some wet food, but he had some earlier, and has plenty of dry…plus I gave him a treat a bit ago.

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                  1. I’m sorry, am I babbling? LOL I was just meaning not sure if I could really get to sleep because of the cat, and not sure what to do for him. Maybe I should just go to bed…guess I’m to the point of making no sense. 🙂

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                    1. No, it is probably that my brain is still half asleep. Here is something uncanny though. I was distracted when reading that exact comment because Milo, my cat, was on my dresser meowing like crazy… This is starting to kind of freak me out.. 🙂

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  15. have you ever felt like you lost IQ points because you read something so incredibly stupid that your brain just said ‘fuck this’ and died? thats how i felt reading the ‘i love satan as a brother’ crap.
    i love you mom, i guess i could learn a few things about being polite when i don’t feel like it from you…

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    1. LOL!! Bugletto!! That was hilarious, and somewhat insulting to this guy. He is entitled to voice his opinion and he had a good intention. I’ve visited his site many times, and while I didn’t know this stance per se, I do know he’s had a pretty damaging life.
      lol..sometimes I get worried that you’ve been trained by the military to shoot a gun.. 🙂 I love you so much, Bug…When are you ever coming home????

      — Mom

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    1. Yes. I took a nap and am now horrifying my self with my spelling and poor grammar that I’ve been spreading around the net today… I love your post..I’m working my way through your new ones. You okay?

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        1. WHAT?? Praise God!! I’m kind of speechless!! Congratulations!!!! Did you blog about this? I’m going to skip to the end…

          You know, Sara, this one comment made my husband’s six month on-going crap battle, all my viruses, and our harsh/happy day yesterday completely worth every minute. I love you!

          I meant viruses on my computer…lol..not actual real viruses in my body…I think I’m finally cracking up…lol..

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  16. I blogged about it but only a very short post where I said everything that needed saying. Not that I think I needed to say it out loud. I think He knows anyway. I don’t know why I am ready, I just know I am. Nope, still no angels or white doves, but a calmness and a deep sense of being ready. I don’t know how to explain this, but I just knew. It’s kind of silly, but I was listening to American Idol while it happened.

    I love you too. You have played a big part in my being ready for this. True story, soon to be famous people. Lol. But, seriously, you have. You have been so graceful and inspirational and have proven to me that having faith isn’t scary but kind of cool.

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    1. This news just made my whole day. I am just the one God put in place to act as His rep…it seems to me that He did most of the hard stuff Himself! I love that you said yes to Him while He was using Cyndi Lauper!! Most people pray the sinner’s prayer, but I’m inclined to believe that you can keep it as simple as “yes. Lord. I believe. Please help me to get to know you. Thank you for caring enough for me that you sent your only real son to die, so that I could live…Please forgive me my sins right now” Amen. My salvation prayer in my head was, ” ok. you win.” Of course, I later added the back-up plan of actually mimicking the words of the basic sinner’s prayer..You know me! All bases have to be covered. Frankly, I believe you joined the family the minute you wrote the words I Am Ready. You are going to have your own unique relationship with your Creator, and that includes your own way of expressing yourself. I talk to God the exact same way I speak to you or anyone else..I can’t even make myself stop typing..I’m just so excited and happy!! 🙂

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      1. You know, it occurs to me that He has just handed me two gifts: My own and your happiness. I didn’t exactly say yes while Cyndi Lauper sang God’s message to me, you know me – I had to go a couple more rounds. And then I had to be tested today. Well, maybe God didn’t have much to do with earlier today.

        Yes, I think God knows that I have to meet him on my terms, as long as they aren’t unreasonable. I’m not ready for church yet, and I don’t know if I will be, but as long as I have Him in my heart I feel that I will be good for now.

        It’s funny how it seems that He knew exactly what I needed to accept Him in my life. Careful nudging and messages given a way I would understand. Quite a few miracles along the way as well. My ability to forgive, to name the biggest of them. Then there are smaller, but not lesser miracles: Meeting you and other wonderful people of faith here who have shown me faith in action. Not through threats and belittling, but through acceptance and love.

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        1. He meets us where we are and speaks to the parts of us that we respond to. Don’t get locked into Noodle Salad rules right now. This isn’t something that requires overnight holiness..I don’t go to church myself, though I would recommend that you seek out some teachers, even if they are only on the net. I still smoke cigarettes…shocking, I know. It seems to be the one habit I just can’t shake. It means there are still things that God is working out in me, but He never addresses all of the things that need to be fixed at once..You aren’t going to instantly be different. You are still Sara. Becoming a Christian doesn’t change anyone miraculously overnight. God will gently begin steering you..like He has been…toward areas that He is going to heal…Also, be prepared. Now, satan is going to really be intent on trying to steal this from you. Just remember, he is a liar and he has already stolen enough from you throughout your life. Stand ready to be tested. You just joined me on the dangerous list.. 🙂 I’m here for you should you need anything!

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          1. I’m still not entirely sure why I was called so – well, annoyingly at times, and I don’t know what I will bring to the table but myself, which isn’t much (old habits and so on). It’s still a little shocking that I am where I am right now.

            I will start to educate myself slowly – but all in due time. I think God knows that I have a lot of work to do with my healing and recovery. He has already given me a lot, but I have a long ways to go still. I am still me – stubborn and vulnerable, strong and weak, happy and sad, proud and humble, everything that make me Sara.

            You know, thongs can also be used as sling-shots. I pity satan. I bet he has never been thong-slinged before.

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            1. I wrote out this long, and to my sleepy brain, brilliant comment about satan and his usual method of trying to steal away or make you doubt yourself in the beginning of your walk…It was witty, insightful and gone as my internet connection decided to up and quit on me. I wanted to not look like I’d just suddenly gone to bed or something without telling you good-night or whatever, and that stupid connection just would not come back up. ..And I rarely have connection problems. See what I mean? Satan hates us both now. 🙂 Notice, though, that the connection is back up…that was prayer because I could not find one thing wrong on my computer or my modem. Satan is a worthy enemy, but God has no problem putting him back in his place. Sleep peacefully tonight, Sara! This faith promises a full, adventurous journey!

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  17. Wow, I’ve rarely ever read anything even close to ignorant in the comments… must be something in the air. Keep hanging in there darlin – tomorrow is always another day. xxx

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    1. Right? I never run into anything snarky on my site…and really, the guy that left me the comment wasn’t being rude, just voicing an well-intentioned opinion — Sara’s was just plain mean, and Anne’s was just a bad location..lol. What a day!

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  18. i read this after Bible study last night. In fact, I read it from my phone before I left the church (because I get emails on my phone) and in the car, on the way home, I was chanting, “Go, Bird. Go Bird.” Everyone is entitled to a little righteous indignation. And some people deserve whatever they’re dished. When you write such drivel as the comments these readers made, they are doing it to cause trouble and goodness knows, they should receive some. Even Jesus ran the moneychangers out of the temple. It’s okay to be a crusader sometimes. Don’t feel guilty about it. I’m rooting for you. Sandy

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    1. Bless you, Sandy!! I’m always unsure about whether I’m doing something right when my anger is involved. Do you know what I mean? It took me a while to understand that anger, in and of itself, isn’t a sin. Yet fodder for another lesson from God, I’m sure.

      Did you hear the good news? Sara accepted Jesus last night!! It was worth all the stuff that has been happening to me lately!!

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        1. It really isn’t me. God could have used her pets to do the same thing. All glory and praise belong to only Him!! But thank you so much for the kind compliment. You always make me feel good!!

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